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Never give up on your hardest day.

Yesterday Miss Annabelle turned one month! I can't believe it! With all the stressful-sleepless nights mixed in with beautiful snuggles. She's starting to be so alert. Loves staring at the ceiling fan in the living room. Kindermusik was a success yesterday! She didn't eat the whole time this time so we were able to participate more. I'm definitely getting sad knowing my Maternity leave is coming to a end soon. We go in for her one month check tomorrow. Can't wait to see how much Dino weights! 


With Annabelle's one month comes one month of breastfeeding. This mama has "Iron Boobies"! This first month hasn't been easy with her lazy latch, sometimes no latch at all but we didn't give up on our hardest day and it's only up from here! 


Auntie Kim and Uncle Chris is coming into town late Thursday! I can't wait to see my sibs!!! Being in three different states hasn't been easy but through this pregnancy and now, makes me really miss them more and wish they were here. 

Ordered our pocket diapers but because of Mardi Gras there is a delay! It's like waiting for Christmas morning to arrive!!! Hope everyone stuffed their face with a Paczki or two...maybe even three! :) 

Don't let the bed bugs bite. 

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