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Burning the Midnight Oil

Whoever thought of daylight savings wasn't thinking of newborns. This should be interesting on top of a growth spurt but this mama isn't complaining. Extra cuddles is just what this mama needs! 


My maternity leave is going to an end! Monday I go back to work and then this all gets even more real. Where there is a will, there is a way! The last few weeks we've been battling D-MER and I am so happy I feel atleast one let down a day :) with no negative feelings following! One let down, down and many more to come! I never thought I would be so excited over something like this. I've always been one to keep thoughts and feelings in. And then when shit hits the fan is when I voice all my thoughts and fears. But this time I told myself that, that's not allowed. I need to ask for support and voice my fears whenever I feel them. And I did just that. I was so worried people were going to judge. D-MER is still so new that not that many know about it. They give you the sideway dog look but I stood my ground and asked for help and support. For the first time in my 24 years I stood up and didn't wait till I blew. And for that I couldn't be prouder.


My parents arrive tomorrow which makes returning to work Monday ten times easier. Such a blessing mom will be watching for the next month and half before she goes to daycare. Helps this mama out a lot! Think my anxiety would be ten times worse. 


Over the last seven weeks I've learned I enjoy cloth diapering and preparing the diapers, nursing, play time and singing toddler music, even when she's sleeping or not in the car! There's no book on motherhood, marriage and life. It's been interesting learning to balance being a wife, a mother, a friend, a sister and a daughter. Talk a lot wearing many hats! But the two most important wife and mother. Between Annabelle starting to smile & talk and with Joel starting his new job at DHS in Kalamazoo, I couldn't be happier and proud. We thought life would take us out of state or maybe back to the East Side but surprisingly I'm really excited. Our life started together in Kalamazoo and knowing we will be living and starting our family there warms my heart. 

Time to soak up these late night cuddles! 
XoXo 

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