Oh life after baby. There can be a billion YouTube videos, books falling of the shelf but nothing will compare to hands on baby. Life after breastfeeding! It's strange. At times I look at Joel and feel like I should be doing something. Pumping, washing pumping parts, getting my pump bag for the next day. Extra time. It's odd. It's bittersweet nice. Funny when you "let go" how much weight is lifted. Coming to terms and making the hardest decision was secretly the best decision for my family, for my health, for me. I rarely like to put myself before others but I knew this was something I needed to do, on my terms. I remember a good friend saying with love "that's all you get?" "I didn't realize". I thought that was the only way. I'm A's mom, I'm suppose to provide for her. But you can't measure your love in ounces. You measure by a clean baby, a full belly and laughter that fills the house! Oh how I live for the laugh
From PPD and D-MER to life as a momma of 2. Enjoy :) It continues to be my outlet to speak my truth and heal. Xo